So my brother went down to the hospital the other day in cardiac arrest.  He is in his 60’s.

He has had a really good life and what is starting to hit me really hard since hearing that he went to the hospital is how fragile and short life really is.

60 years is really not a lot of time and if you think about how much time you waste …it’s even shorter.

My brother has some sort of something called amyloidosis and the progress is not so good.  They are testing him now for bone cancer too.

Apparently it is commonly found with bone cancer and if so, then he has about two or three years according to my sources.

I live so far away from him, so what do you do?

Life is strange.

You grow up in the same household and then you move out and away from one another.  The person you spent close to over 20 years of your existence is then hardly seen and you touch base with cards and the occasional phone call.

Do you ever think that things would be better if life wasn’t so full of technology and jobs were so diverse and all over the place that family units would be …..well…more family like?

Sometimes it is tough to face the reality.

No wife. Almost dead brother. Kids who live far away.


I feel so alone.

I have a girlfriend and we both have our own houses that we once share with our deceased spouses and raised a family in….and now here we are trying to redefine ourselves and so aware of the little time we have left.

We focus on enjoying the little things and laughing but still, sometimes you sit back and start posting on a blog and realize that your life is limited.

It makes it hard for me to understand how some religions can just destroy lives and murder people over the stupidest things.  Really, life is so short anyways that whatever it is that you despise will eventually die on it’s own anyways.

Plus…what is a life filled with murder and blood?

It isn’t a life.

It’s a crazed, maniac filled span of time.

I believe that people who murder and kill and things like that don’t have lives, They have flashes of life. Brief moments of peace if they are lucky but otherwise live in a turmoil that I will never understand.

It must be hell on Earth to live that way. Always angry. Always hunting and running.

Think about it.

There is nothing peaceful about murdering someone.  Even if you are “ok” with it, it will never be a peaceful act and those images and sounds are with the murder forever.

I imagine they must be haunted.

Perhaps that’s the sweet revenge the world has to offer.   IT doesn’t give peace to those who harm others.

This is sad but a bit of relief in the same way.


how did I get off on such a tangent?

This article is meant to be about amyloidosis…so here is a little video for those of you that are wanting to know more.



What do you do after a Cancer Treatment?

Things to Do After Your Mesothelioma Cancer Treatment

Cancer survivors are often eager to return to their “normal self” or rather to good health after their cancer treatment. But their journey to recovery requires enhancing their overall long-term health at least to better help them enjoy their later years in life as cancer survivors.


If you are a cancer survivor, and in particular Mesothelioma, you can improve your health by doing what other normal people do to improve their overall health … you know, like eating healthy, exercising, limiting alcohol and tobacco intake, maintaining a healthy weight, and many other healthy styles of living. Here are ten things to do after your cancer treatment.Read More

Cancer is Nothing New

Cancer is not new to this world.

Cancer defined is basically uncontrolled growth. Cancer first starts when cells (of any type) start to grow uncontrollably within the body or the organism.

Abnormal cells that do not regulate themselves are cancer.

Cancer, the second leading cause of death in the U.S., affects half of all men and about one/third of all women in their lifetime.  Read More

What are some different types of cancer treatment?

What are some types of Cancer Treatment?

Being treated for cancer can be scary and knowing what to expect and some possible options can definitely help ease the anxiety.  Going through cancer treatments, no matter what type, is no easy.

The most common forms of cancer treatment are surgery (my preferred option), chemotherapy (eck) and radiation (eck).

The first and most preferred type of cancer treatment is surgery.  This is a great surgery if you catch the cancer before it metasticized (sp?) and has figured out how to travel around in your body.  Sometimes the surgeon may only have to take out a portion of a tumor or it may be the whole tumor.Read More

What do cancer cells look like?

 What do cancer cells look like? How are they identified?

Let’s get a little background on cells before we start this post.

Cells defined are the basic unit and structure of life.  All living things are composed of cells and all cells come from other cells.

Similar to energy in that it can not come from nowhere, the Cell Theory states that cell must come from other cells.

At the microscopic level, cells vary in size and depending on what type of cells are being observed and what type of organism the cells come from.

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What to do when someone has a seizure.

Seizures, unfortunately, are something that I have had to deal with during the times that my wife was suffering through her brain cancer.

I decided to write about this topic today, because my daughter’s little girl had what was called a fibrile seizure this past weekend and I know what a frightening experience it can be to have to witness this type of ordeal in an adult.

I can only imagine the terror that one must have when they see their own child (let alone a small baby) go through a seizure.

Seizures are the bodies signal to let us know something is not right. They can be the result of a back triggering within the body or as a mechanism to protect the body from excessive heat, exhaustion….anything really!

When you witness a seizure of  a loved one, the largest emotion that you will be dealing with is that of helplessness.

When a seizure takes place, there is NOTHING you can do but wait to see what happens.Read More

What to do when you know death is near for you or a loved one.

I know this might seem like such a morbid blog but it is not intended to be.

Dealing with Death is like Dealing with Racism.

People skip by it and they just don’t talk about it.


Because it’s easier.

So dumb.

It’s not easier to ignore important topics in life.

If it’s uncomfortable, it’s probably something that needs to be done.

You see what I’m saying?Read More

High Heel Runs, Why?

High Heel Runs?


Well, when you have one life to live…the answer, in my opinion, should be why not?

Now that’s not why I’m writing, I’m watching the show called Extreme Weight Loss.

It about these rather largely obese people that have to lose weight and they are on tv while doing it.

It’s a good little show.Read More

Dying Before Lung Cancer Kills You

I met a woman not too long ago who had two young children and has been diagnosed with lung cancer.

She was a small woman who lived in a quaint town that unfortunately was being taken over by heroine addicts but that’s not really what I want to talk about.

I want to talk about how some people who are diagnosed with lung cancer can die before the cancer kills them and how it can cause their loved ones to suffer even longer than they are probably even aware of.

This particular mother, I’ll call her Rebecca, was an avid smoker.  So I suppose it’s not a surprise that she got lung cancer.Read More

Enjoying Life After a Loved One Has Passed Away

I have to address this issue because I have seen so many people, including me, forget about what life is really about and they get stuck in their sorrow when a loved one passes (especially a spouse)

I remember when my wife was alive, I use to take her presence for granted.

I would spend so much time in my garage, which was detached from the house, with my tools and talking “shop” that after she died, I just wallowed in sorrow and didn’t visit my workshop for months.

I think maybe I felt some sort of shame or responsibility for her death because I didn’t spend more time with her before she died.Read More